My nasty and eerie computer!

I am having some very strange experiences with my computer. I think someone put a spell on it, because it is out to get me. Let me relate a few experiences I have been having.

I enjoy watching a movie in the evenings to relax, and maybe it gets over around 10:30 or 11pm. I then consider going to bed…BUT…and here is the eerie part….my computer starts calling out to me, “come here, come here”.

I really try to resist but I feel helpless against it’s magnet-like pull. I keep telling myself not to listen and to go to bed so that I can get my restful sleep. But I am no match for my computer….I am too weak to resist. And quicker than you can sneeze, I find myself seated before the darn thing.

Ok…I will just check my e-mails and then I will go to bed. So I check my mail and then the eerie computer starts in again.. “now you had better file all those hundreds of e-mails in your inbox so you can find things”. I want to go to bed! “It won’t take long and you will feel so good that you did that”. Ok, but then I am going to bed!

So I finish filing the hundreds of e-mail and then I look at the clock….it is 12:30am, 90 minutes since I first sat down in front of this eerie machine! The computer won’t let me alone…what is the matter with it?!!!! Now it is urging me to check on a clip art website that it remembered I wanted to visit. I will do it in the morning! “Why put it off till the morning…aren’t you anxious to see what is on it?” It is like I am in a trance…next thing I know I am into the clip art site. “Oh that one is cute, you better save that…and look here at this one, better save that one too”.

Well, I again look at the clock and it is now 2:30am! I need and want to go to bed…NOW! “In a minute, but just do this one little last thing first”. Oh my gosh…I can’t believe it…my computer has hypnotized me! It is controlling me….help! help! Now it wants me to go into my file that I keep my clip art and other images. I am urged to start rearranging and organizing all my images!

What a mess that was to take care of. I look at the clock again…it is now 4:30am. WHAT! Where did all the time go?!! That’s it, hypnotized or not…I MUST GET TO BED! I take one strong will-power move (against all other unseen powers)…and click on the words: TURN OFF COMPUTER. There…I did it. I won this time. That computer can’t control me anymore. Good night.

That was last night. Tonight is very hopeful of an early bed time right after my movie. The movie gets over and I start getting ready for bed. Oh, no! Not that voice in my head again: “come here, come here”…as I glance over at my nasty, eerie computer. No, please, no…not tonight. I am so tired. I must go to bed to catch up on the sleep I missed last night. “It will only take a minute….didn’t you say you wanted to check out something on YouTube?”

What do I want to do, or be, when I grow up?

In my senior year of High School many years ago, I thought (for a short while) that I would like to join the Navy (Waves) when I graduated. That didn’t last long. I never learned to make goals and work towards them (still don’t). I just lived a day at a time back then, and come what may. If someone would have told me back then that I would religiously be where I am now…I would have laughed at them.

After graduation my Grandma must have been doing some heavy thinking in my behalf. Evidently she did not like my step-mother (I did…she was very good to me) and she thought I needed to get away from home life (or whatever her reason really was…..I don’t remember at the time). Anyway, she made arrangements with the family across the street from us. Their daughter just graduated college and about 5 other of her friends were going to California to be school teachers. I ended up traveling with them in two cars and my grandmother had made arrangements for me to go to the home of her nephew and his family, of whom I did not know.

I stayed with them for a few weeks or so and then they helped me get a car, a job, and a place to live. After several months, I met my first husband and we were married 3 months later.

Anyway, it seemed as though my life was being planned out for me by others after graduation. And after I became so close to my Church and God, I received a personal revelation about my life…and that is exactly what I truly believe that God was doing with this inward, shy, full of potential, young girl. He was leading, guiding and helping her to where he would like her to be…because he had something great for her in her life. And if she did not balk, and “do her own thing”…great things were spiritually in store for her.

Through the years of my life since then, it has been like many, many puzzle pieces of my life that was all coming together and forming a grand picture….mine for the taking!! But not without sacrifice and hard work. We all have the gift of free agency…to choose for our self what we want for our life. Do we want happiness and joy, or sadness and misery?
It all depends upon our choices.